I was chatting with a photogprahy friend of mine in FB recently and he brought up the issue of going to become a Freelance photographer in SG. He was facing a dilemna as most aspiring startups will be. The fear of not being able to sustain financially, the fear of not able to meet client's demand and etc etc...
But the one thing that concerns me was that he finds himself a bit unworthy or his photos are not up to par. This is a really bad thought. How can one starts to sell his passion and proffesional skills if he keeps doubting himself that his photos can't make it?
The beauty of being an artist (photography or any other art form) is that you wish to express yourself. In any forms and one should not create a piece or art for the purpose of pleasing anyone but yourself! All great artist including the great Ansel Adam loves their own creation. F**k care what other thinks! Do what you like and share it if you like it! There is bound to be the same people who might enjoy your photos.
Some good examples are that I hated those HDR lanscape photos. But I never dissed them, its just not for me and those who like it WILL like it. Vice versa, I like soft and blurry creative taken photos that those gearheads will just say its a piece of crap. My point is that there will be a crowd that will enjoy that piece of art you create.
So stop doubting about yourself and heck care what other thinks about your work. And if you hate your photos, then shoot something that you like or enjoy. If not, why are you still taking pictures then?
I've just realised I haven't wrote anything for almost a month! It was work all the way when I came back to SG as there was this big Malaysia election and all my colleagues (who happened to be Malaysians) took leave to go back and vote. Too bad the ruling party BN won again and it is pretty discouraging day for fellow Malaysians.
There was much update since. I have thrown in the towel and submitted my resignation letter recently. No more shift work for me in June 15 onwards. A few reasons are the recent changes to my job scope and I can't find myself submiting to the constant nonsense I am facing. Money is important but so is my health. It dosen't help if my blood pressure keeps rising while working right? :)
Anyway, I have also started my backup plan of being a Taxi drive in SG. Yup, me, a bloody taxi driver..hehe. My course will commence in 17th June and it should end in early July. If I managed to pass the test, I would most probably be back in Thailand for a month or 2 before coming back in September for my reservist.
There are some long term plans but nothing concrete so far. Sincerely, I just want to get out of the company that has changed so much so at least after I got out of it, I will have more time to plan my next move.
Speaking of family. The two little monsters are back in school. Boy boy started kindergarden and seems happy to meet some new friends. Though he does cry everytime in the morning when my wife send him in. The surprising one is my girl. Those who follow me on facebook (though I was wrong in the ranking :P) would have know this great news. She was actually 2nd in Standard and 1st in Class! Scoring an average of 3.88/4. Hope she keeps it up!
And I finally have a long break . 4 days in total.:P And this is just my 2nd day. hehe...